Sunday Currently, Vol.4
I know what you are going through. I know that it is hard. I also know that no one can really understand or feel exactly the same way you are feeling right now. You’ve been through a lot. You’ve sacrificed everything that you have. You gave up every opportunity you can have. You let go of your pride. You lost yourself while you were trying to save him. You’ve done this. You’ve done that. Still, you lose the fight.
Your world collapsed when you found out that he was not the same person you knew. He has changed a lot. Does he? Or could it be that the person you see thru him right now is the real person you never thought he was? Whatever it may be, one thing is for sure. He’s not the same person you fell in love with. The person who brought butterflies to your stomach. The person who amazed you with everything he does. The person who made you smile after waking up with his every “good morning” messages. The person who gave you that awesome feeling during your late night conversations about how your day was or even just for some random things. There was no explanation to the excitement you feel while looking forward to the next time you’ll see him again. It was perfect. He was perfect. It was magical. Of course, it was. You were in love.
But my Dearest You, some things are not meant to last. Good memories are destroyed by the same people we created them with. The same way, we get distracted by the things around us. People will never be contented with what they have. They find flaws and loopholes in everything. There will always be something missing in their lives. Automatically, they search for it outside the comfort of their homes. They search for it beyond the being of their own person. They become weak. And when they thought they finally found it, they got lost in ecstasy. They easily give in, not realizing that they are losing the only thing, or in some case, the only person that will make them complete.
Unfortunately, he’s one of them. You learned about this for a quite some time now, yet, you still chose to listen to his side of the story. You believed him. You held on to the hope that he will still change. He asked you to stay. You did. He kept you on hold, while he continued to explore the world he created without you. He had your heart broken. He made your being broken. You cried. You cried a lot. He made you question what you have done to deserve all those things. He was supposed to bring out the best in you, not the stress in you. He was supposed to bring the better version of you. Instead, he created the worst person you never imagine you could. Until you reached the limit. You finally choose yourself.
I know you have so many doubts. You are still afraid of what will come. But I want you to know that I am proud of you. You don’t have to settle for less. You deserve the best. And you have it all to be the best. You are young. You are smart. You are independent. You are strong-willed. You are a beautiful soul. You have a pure and genuine heart. Do not let all the goodness in you be swallowed and wasted by the negativities people are throwing at you. Guard your heart and save yourself from underserving people around you. You might have lost the battle, but you win yourself in return. Focus on strengthening yourself and gaining your pride. You’ve worked hard for it before. I know you can do better this time. A beautiful person can never be ruined by an undeserving man. Pull yourself together. When the right time comes, you will meet the right person that will not just complete you but will accept every missing piece of you. For now, throw away all your worries and seize the day. You are one in a million. Not just any man deserves you. Stay gorgeous and fab!